As soon as you guys have seen the title "VOID" many things would have came across your mind. I reckon that most of you people came in contact with this word in scientific terms as I did....and even we were so amateur that time to see the other aspect of the term Void. Everyone must have their own definition of void.....but for me its an empty space in our life, in our environment or in everything which revolves around us.We people always try to show that the word void has no place in our life, sometimes by faking it in front others or by deceiving ourselves.
But why we try to fake it....or want to run away from it..!!...because somewhere we know that this is the fact of our life. I really don't understand when this void becomes the integral part of our life and how...obviously we don't want any empty space in our life so how the void came into existence. As far as my understanding goes the major reason for it is 'EXPECTATIONS'.
Here I am, on the road again.........and what i find is traffic jam.!!
Once again a gridlock......ohhhh no....after the hectic day of work as I decided to reach home at the earliest but what I see is traffic. Have we ever wondered how this traffic relates with us..? I think to cover it one by one, lets start with hooter or u can say horn, this is the most common and irritating thing that we come across frequently.....why we are exploiting it...are we trying to show that my hooter is more audible than yours...actually in our lives also we have people like hooter, they just play their horn again n again and we are not in a position to revert back the favor sometimes due to seniority or their designation but we keep that thing in mind and whenever we get chance we also start our horn. I suppose we feel eminent by using our automobile horn in this manner we actually try to show others that we don't have a habit to wait or are we trying to say I'm left behind i need to get the first position and then the similar sequence follows making it worse.
There comes another thing "overtake" though bit dangerous how often we try to overtake others whether we are stuck in life or in gridlock, we just want to overtake everywhere and same with the person leading the race he doesn't want anyone to take his place and this dauntless game continues which sometime take face of an accident.
Accidents whether they are minor or major their affect is villainous, we never think that this cat n mouse race can be so deadly which will hamper not only the riders in race but the whole bunch of people who are involved with them which in turn give rise to ' Road Rage'.
Road Rage has become the common sight in roads or we can say its a live entertainment in which people lose their civilized etiquette's and which we often enjoy if it happening with others but why is that so what kind of satisfaction we get by seeing others in trouble...? Do we try to compensate our sufferings by seeing others suffering..??
So finally we reach at our destination after so much of hustle-bustle and yes i have saved my 5 minutes by honking my horn, by overtaking others. So what if i haven't given a way to an Ambulance but i saved my 5 minutes.
Those five minutes really makes the difference ...?? Do i really feel like enjoying with my folks after coming through such a mess...??....may be NO !!
Mark's phone is ringing......he missed that....again it rings second time, he disconnect it.... again it rings...he is on his way to home after the hectic schedules of meetings and business plans...he slow downs the speed of his car..A sweet voice of "Jeniffer" says baby why were u not picking up my call...??... you know am so excited to tell u that.....Jeniffer ' a weary sound comes ' cutting her voice halfway.....baby am about to reach home...will call u in few minutes....Jeniffer....stops...buuuutttttt...listen...ohhhh ok......its ok baby....call me as soon as possible am waiting...bye...love u.
As Mark reaches home.....he switched on the television set while changing the clothes.....the famous soccer match is coming...which draws his attention as his favorite team is on the ground ....he recollects"...what beautiful days were those when i was in college...I used to be the captain of my college soccer team...and we were on the top positions..." ....and suddenly the phone starts ringing ,which make him to come back from his golden memories ....again its Jeniffer....
hey Mark "what are you up to."....am waiting for your call from past half an hour....hey jenny...'he interrupt...I was just getting freshen up....was about to call you.....suddenly the voice raises.......and finally... Andres Iniesta scores a goal for Spain. Congratulations to SPAIN.........'yes they won...I knew it'....Mark shouts in excitement....Jennifer on the other side.....in primitive voice says..' i thought you were about to call me...'...isnt it...??
Soon Mark realizes :......ohhhhh yes jenny i was about to call you...was just shuffling the channels..and.....was just....
Jeniffer (gets annoyed) :....stop it "Mark".....since morning we haven't talked as you were busy with your meetings.....and now also you are busy in this stupid things....
Mark :...this is not stupid.....whole world is watching this....and i told you i was about to call you....but you are...
Jeniffer : Ohhhhh..so now you'll do what whole world is doing......what about me....who is waiting since morning to talk to you...do i have any importance in your life...??
Mark :......jenny please..don't start it again...please calm down..."hey jenny hold on....my mom is calling me.....i'll just talk to her for few minutes...please wait.....the phones goes on holding beep...
This infuriates jenny more....'she's on hold from past 10 minutes'.....suddenly the beep breaks into mark's voice..
Mark :...hey sorry for the hold...but you know how mom is....she started asking about each n everything ....about my diet, my work..
Jeniffer :....she sulked....."I don't want to know".....you don't have time for me....but you've time for whole world....
Mark : Excuse me..!!!...she's my mom jenny..she has full rights to call me anytime...
Jeniffer : Then who i am in your life.....you restrict me to call you in office hours....you prefer soccer match over me........now i have understood i don't have any place in your life...
Mark : Jenny now you're stretching the matter......just think whatever u want.....' why should i give explanation all the time...
Jeniffer :...because u don't have anything to say...and now don't even care for me(she starts weeping)......am putting the phone down, i just don't want to talk to you...don't call me now.....and the phone gets disconnected...
...............jenny is weeping...but still she's looking at her phone in a hope to get a call from Mark......but he didn't.....which increased her pain more....
On the other hand...Mark saying to himself....."let her calm down first".....she wont understand anything right now......and the night gets more darken.
My question is.........was Jeniffer expecting much from him....??......or it was Mark who unintentionally neglected her..?
Its difficult to figure out because at certain level both are correct on their grounds but why the small thing created a big issue.....why the relationships are so fragile...??
Blogging......am new to this word...never read any earlier....neither had any idea about it. But just a couple of hours back i was chatting with my friends and was just passing my time like as the earlier routine...and from nowhere one of my friend suggested me to write a blog.....my reaction was blog...ughhh.......but then suddenly something strike in my mind...i said to myself why not a " Blog".....i thought in our respective lives we seldom come across with such people who transparently understand our thoughts....maybe i can say this is my case. So i decided to make one with a hope that i can convey my feelings, my thoughts, my emotions....with those who understand what does it takes to pen down your thoughts. I, agree that we all are strangers here...but still there is a fear that people will come to know about your real being......but YES this time i want people to know me......and similarly i want to know them as well and share their feelings.
Hope to see all of you next time as soon as possible. Till than take care of yourself.
This infuriates jenny more....'she's on hold from past 10 minutes'.....suddenly the beep breaks into mark's voice..